It’s like I have an aversion to writing lately. I sat here with my laptop on my lap, threatening myself into writing for an hour before I started typing these words. Until right now, I just couldn’t make my self write a word for months. And before that, I would write here or there, but nothing serious. I can’t even blame lack of time, because I have been able to make reading a priority for myself and am forcing exercise into my “busy life.” It isn’t lack of interest, because I think to myself once a day that I just need to write something. Anything! It must be fear.
But I don’t want to be afraid anymore, I want to live my dreams. My job is getting more serious, and I’m going to start considering my own “brand” and putting my future first since there is a possibility that my current job might mean something someday soon. So, I need to make myself mean something. I need to take shit into my own hands. I need to find the will power to write, and just force myself into it like I’m doing right now! Maybe like working out, every morning that I exercise my body, I will spend that corresponding evening exercising my mind and improving my writing.
I won’t make this a promise, though because I’m not very good at those. Let’s call it a goal for now. My goal is to write creatively (not just stream of conscious like this) 3-4 times a week. Hopefully, one day I will achieve this.
Wish me luck!