6 July I looked up at the great vessel set to be my home for the much awaited future. Gand and beautiful. The smooth curves of the wood. I could see the hands that placed every plank, reinforced every beam. Sails hung perfectly from the mast. The love and care in forming such a … Continue reading At Sea
Things have been feeling really intense lately. Up in the air, no sign of direction. This is a place that I know very well. This uncertain, anxious, staring into the unknown kind of place. A part of it feels like failure because it means that I'm not doing what I think that I should be. … Continue reading Lately…
I'm too good at being alone I feel no ruch to fill a space I crave the silence of isolation Healthy independenc from unhealthy boundaries Blocked areas so tall that I can't see out I fear my resistence to seeking love But I love me and isnt't that enough?
Cold and smooth down my throat People rush passed but time is still My feet waver. I can't be still Listening intently with no absorption Fear that I'm missing out but aware that I'm as I should be My knees keep me upright staring. Not longing. Intent. Not caring. Thick and nauseating. I craved it. … Continue reading Midnight Cream
I try to eat well. I’m addicted to sugar, so it’s hard sometimes. I have made great strides in my day to day eating: not too much snacking, and if I do, I make healthy choices. I eat salads for lunch most days, and either oatmeal or cereal for breakfast. My problem is that after … Continue reading Who Has a Healthy Relationship with Food?
Pain and misery is easy Words flow Mind leaking Thoughts drain Content houses the hardship Locked tight Double bolted Life interrupts creation Happiness a coarse callous Wait patiently and smiling For a sweet kick in the ass
I haven’t written in months I don’t think my dreams have changed I think my motivation has altered The grind of retail is wearing I’m tired each day They suck my faith my strength my pain Nothing is felt when exhaustion sets in What I put down feels less than creative I believe that quitting … Continue reading Haven’t Written
I’m lonely when there’s people around me I’m in trouble and no one will help me Haven’t told but I live in this memory I shower away the overloaded sensory It’s my life to live without a plan for it I pray to believe in nothing but god answers I bury my dreams in a … Continue reading My Life
Im alone Im alone Im alone I see my life as a movie montage My mouth is too wet for my blunt The house is big and Im alone Something makes a sound but Im alone Ive been drinking while Im alone When I get like this my brain runs off I am my … Continue reading I am my father
Words spoken to a mirror. A question held, paralyzed in air. The response is known, but not heard; Thought. Not Spoken. A secret kept from the self Lies told out of love Patience in withholding. An earnest hope for future success. An answer held in fear.
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