I try to eat well. I’m addicted to sugar, so it’s hard sometimes. I have made great strides in my day to day eating: not too much snacking, and if I do, I make healthy choices. I eat salads for lunch most days, and either oatmeal or cereal for breakfast. My problem is that after dinner and sometimes lunch, I crave something sweet; specifically chocolate. I have considered buying high end high cacoa content chocolate, and allowing myself a little piece. First of all, yuck. Second of all, if it isn’t yuck, then it’s hard for me to not eat a whole bunch of it. Other solutions have been just allowing the behavior. I sometimes decide that I eat well enough throughout the day to take the small hit that a real nice, big cookie or brownie gives me. The decision usually brings regret, and a realization that the hit is not only large, but just one small example of the larger problem.
Other substitutes include yogurt, granola, mint or ginger candy, but often times the feeling that I want the sweet comes into play before the meal, so I stock up preemptively. I think that writing this is allowing me to really see that the real issue is willpower, self discipline. I have been able to discipline other aspects of my eating, which was difficult. Now I have to get real with myself. I want to be healthier. I need to be healthier. I have to develop a better relationship with food and my body, but how?